strange but harmless.

crossed a threshold this night. sometime at dusk, somewhere in columbia SC, espresso, tofu, adbusters - still in the slipstream now. bells chime heard thru greenglass here in this high tower, looking down the avenue of twinkling trees. drove randomly - found exactly what i wanted (easier than had i sought direction) [...]

it’s been about half a year since i accepted the fact that i am co-dependent. since that time, there have been many successes and setbacks, trials and tribulations. that was the first big step; acceptance of the problem. the second step of equal size was my acceptance that i cannot solve the [...]

lotek at work, 2002

sixteen years ago today, chan died. my mourning has died to almost a whisper, and has not kept me awake for many years. but there it is - she Was, then she Was Not.
i am blessed by our brief intertwining of paths. but i must focus on the living, on the Now. [...]